US admisson... err??
11:05 PM - Posted by Tini - 7 comments
hihi hehe hihi hmm hi hi...xtau nk ckp ape..

arini ku dpt tau sal offer kat PURDUE UNIVERSITY..*big smile*

rase heppy dan gembira sampai lompat2 dalam umah hihi.. *big smile again*

dah seminggu cuak duk umah takut tak dpt mane2 uni yg dah apply, sbb sab nisah n zimah dah dpt offer..tp alhamdulillah Allah bukak pintu rezeki aku semalam.. *bigger smile*

thanx to nadiah yang tlong check emel aku..sbb kat umah takde tenet.. *reducing size smile*

for kawan2 yg laen, aku doakan korg dpt SEMUA uni yg korg apply.. *huge smile*

but the main reason am smiling is sbb pagi nih aku dapat ceriakan hari mak ayah seawal 9 pagi...

*BIGGEST SMILE!!*

ok dah2..nak sambung lompat lagi nih..yeay!


end of 2009
7:55 PM - Posted by Tini - 0 comments
meanless break

application for US uni

..GOOD LUCK GUYS..

pengalaman mematangkan kami...


cita - cita
7:40 AM - Posted by Tini - 7 comments
assalamualaikum..

bila bercakap pasal cita-cita mmg byk respon yg kite dpt..

"sy nk jadi doktor"

"sy nk jadi engineer"

"sy nk jd lecturer"

"emm err sy xtau nk jd ape"

kalau org tnye sy plak, semestinye sy akan jwb jwpn yg last tuh..hee~ mmg mcm tuh..sy xtau sy nk jd ape..sy just ikot flow hidup sy..sy tau itu x bagos..sy tau awak..ye sy tau.....

satu malam sy pegi usrah ngan kwn2 sy seperti biasa..kakak sy sentuh pasal matlamat hidup aka cita-cita..kakak usrah sy membuka bicara dengan senyuman kasih sayang yang selalu membuka hati kami untuk menerima pesanan buat minggu ini..kakak bersuara

" setiap manusia kat atas muka bumi ini mengimpikan syurga Allah..sentiasa mendoakannya..bila di tanya, mengaku dengan sungguh2 mereka inginkan syurga Allah..tapi sejauh mana usaha kite untuk smpai ke syurga Allah??

ok skrg cube kite fikir kejap..dalam seminggu ade 7 hari..dalam sehari ade 24 jam..so dalam seminggu kite ade 168 jam betol x?? skrg cube kite renung balik..dalam mse seminggu nih brape jam kite gune untuk berusaha mendapatkan syurga Allah?? setandingkah dengan usaha kite mengejar cita-cita kat dunia nih?? "

sy terdiam berfikir..

siang malam kita study bersungguh2 untuk kejar2 cita-cita, tp adakah kita beribadat siang malam bersungguh2 untuk dapatkan syurga Allah?

kite selalu Doakan Allah bantu kite untuk fokus lam blajar, tp pernah ke kita doa untuk khusyuk lam solat??

kite slalu berkejar2 ke klas tkut terlepas lecture tp adakah kite berkejar2 tunaikan solat sebaik dengar azan??

kite selalu solat hajat untuk dapat result bagos tp pernah ke kite solat hajat untuk dapat syurga firdaus nanti??

kite selalu nangis2 bile tersilap jwb lam exam, tp pernahkah kita meratapi dosa2 kite yg menggunung??

yang paling sedih....

kite selalu takut smpai nak luruh jantung bile dekat nak final...tapi kenapa kite boleh buat dont know je kat ajal yang boleh datang bile2 mase je yg kite xtau??

tazkiyatunnafsi..


word of "NO"
1:15 AM - Posted by Tini - 4 comments
When i was a little girl, am a very demanding daughter.. mAybe its bacause am the only daughter in my family.. Everyhting that i want, my parents must fullfill it.. But my parents were not pampering me.. Though i keep asking for what i want, they will give me only the one that i deserve.. Not the one i want..but still, i keep demand..

when i grow up, am stil who i am.. keep demanding on all i wish..bad uh?? yes i admit it.. because of that attitude, am become phobic to the words "NO".. and because of that bad behavior also i got hurt so many times..

So finally, i decide to change myself.. change my mind, try to accept everything that people give..huh! its very painful..everytimes i ask sumthing from my parents, indeed, i'll close my eyes when they answer me..why?? am too afraid to hear the answer..it must be either 'yes' or 'no', ryte? 50-50!! so, i hope,with my closde eyes, it'll reduce my pain, if they say no..but it is not.. am still hurt..

am thinking..thinking over and over..what i need to do to expel this feeling?? hurmm...
suddenly, i got an idea!! here it is..let just keep what i want..dont ask it anymore..cool uh??
NO ASK, NO PAIN.. just assume that the answer 100% will be "NO".. so rather than ask, and i will get "NO", better dont ask.. finally, i got the way out..wee~ :)!!

now am here..i become a 19 years old lady..Alhamdulillah, Allah opened my heart to know better about Islam..i met many nice friends here..and the best things is, they are not just my friends, but they all are my sisters..there is a strong love bond between us.. we love each other for the sake of Allah..oh its beautifull, really i say..thank you Allah..

then one day one of my sisters told me..its a hadith

Our beloved rasul said " spread even one word from me......"

u know what that means?? its our responsibility to know the truth, understand the truth and spread the truth..and u know what it mean else? my pain will come back..i'll met 'NO' again..but this time, i'll not ask what i want..but i'll ask what Allah the Almighty want, instead..

"O Allah..purify our heart..give us your strength
to carry this responsibility.."


hey, u know what? actually...
4:08 AM - Posted by Tini - 3 comments
assalamualaikum there..

hey listen here!
let me tell u something..

something that ur teacher might not telling u at school
something that ur prof might not telling u in class
something that ur parents forgot to tell or even never know bout this..

here it start...

do you know where are we now?
in ur house? in ur class? at ur workplace? in a public area?
you might come with thousands answers from this simple quetion.

ok now let me give u an answer that will bind all ur answers..
we are in 'dunia'..
u know what is 'dunia' mean??

'dunia', in arabic, means worldly
and it is a negative connotation in islam.
and the opposite of it, is 'akhira'
which means the eternal afterlife..

dunia is the illusiory element of the world,
is the element that take people away from the akhira,
the world cheat us by telling us that dunia is near,
dunia is close and the akhira is distance..

but in fact, islam teach us that dunia is distance..
one of the meaning of dunia is
to reach out a grape that u never grasp.
because that is the real dunia.
u will never reach it.
it will always evade u!!

look around u..
what are people chasing in this world?

money..

ammusement..

joys..

all based on physical pleasure..
and have u ever seen them satisfy?
never!! they will never satisfy..

do you know how we are created?
you are created as a soul,
and placed into this physical body..
ur body is just "the tool"
a tool, for ur soul to carry out this temporary physical section,
of ur eternal life..
a tool which should be guided into investing
and feeding the soul..

but what do we do??
we dedicated ALL our lives to feed "the tool",
with physically and worldly pleasure instead..
and dunia system, which created by people themselves,
is cleverly designed to keep you attached to such a worldly illusions.

in the end
dunia have nothing left for u..
and at one point,
dunia will ask u to return back "the tool", instead..

and what left for u??
just a pity empty soul..

think about that..wassalaamm...


-negative-
6:45 PM - Posted by Tini - 2 comments

when i feel sad,
i keep it...

when i feel hurt,
i keep it...

when i feel lonely,
i keep it...

when i talk to people,
am thinking...

when i talk to my parents,
am thinking...

when i talk to you, friend,
actually... i am thinking...

in this small heart,
i keep everythings...
i dont want to share with anyone!!

so day by day,
week by week,
month by month,
finally it burst out.....

who knows that??
who see that??
nobody friend, nobody....

because it happen inside
deep in my heart....


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today i wake up,
nothing change...
nothing solved...

sometimes i wonder,
why i feel this?
why these happen?
why it is me, to face all this?

o Allah, its only You that i have..
nobody else...

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new episode uh?
no, it is still the same..

sadness, dissapointment and hurt..
its all about that..

..now i share it..
~finally~


upsy daisy!
8:25 AM - Posted by Tini - 3 comments
video


assalamu'alaikum wbt there!

here i've a video for ur little brothers and sisters..hope u'll show it to them..
its very nice to share as i dont hve any little brother or sister on my own..
but of course i've A LOT little brothers and sisters in islam, right? thank u Allah!
may Allah keep us in His guidance..ameen (^_^!)

c ya! wassalam...